long distance (no call)
< 2003-08-25 - 9:26 p.m. >

this book smells like karma

(reminds me of you)

you leave tomorrow, and along with you

you dont take me

the thought is there, but thats all it is

my thoughts are flooding me, drowning me

the phone sits on the table, silent

me pre-empting a call, a msg, a .....

i seem to be waiting for a notification

of the fun you are having

(which is obvious)

must be my cue to move on

it's harder then it looks

and it feels harder then that

we strive, we struggle

to end up back at square one

...i dont have a back up plan

so this is it- it works or it doesnt

i wait (like it's something new)

exspecting what i want, to happen when i want

music on ears, to pass the time

taking over my own mind, to pre-occupy

im somewhere i dont want to be, without you

talking to friends of yours about you

because im supposed to know.....

but i dont

and im scared

and...

it's harder then it looks

and it feels harder then that

we strive, we struggle

to end up back at square one

...i dont have a back up plan

so this is it- it works or it doesnt

i want it to work